GOTTA STOP LOVING ME SO MUCH

Phil 1:21-22
21 For to me, living is for Christ, and dying is even better. 22 Yet if I live, that means fruitful service for Christ. I really don't know which is better. NLT
** I just have the hardest time getting this right! Uuuuhg! The reason I live is Christ? I am just too much in the way for Christ to be first….I know I can say that Christ is first and it’s easy to preach and talk about but when it comes down to making the decision to put me on the shelf and put Him first…..THERE IS A HORRIBLE STRUGGLE IN ME! Now don’t get me wrong. I love Him more than anything except I keep finding that at times I love me more…. I don’t like it and I keep trying to change it but my flesh is so hard to kill and keep dead. So when Paul says that “dying is even better” I run into more problems because I think I love me so much I don’t want me to die so I struggle with death and dying because I don’t want to loose me! Yep, I know I’m a mess and my wife says it takes a mess to make a message. So I’ll continue to work on putting me last and Him first…. I hope you’re having a better time at it than I am.